2021 : A Review

Hello, everyone! It's been a while actually since I last made a post here. But now, I'm back to do an annual post that is year review. I usually do this on the last day of the year or December 31st but since I was busy on that day and the day after (busy having a mental breakdown that's what). But anyway, here's my review of 2021

So overall, 2021 was a roller coaster year for me. There were ups and downs but I managed to come out alive again.

Academic : 5/10

It went down a number this year because I had a target to graduate college this year but that didn't happen because a lot of things but I still keep a positive mind that I have to graduate this year.

Family : 7.5/10

This year was a roller coaster mostly because of my family. At the beginning of the year, I felt like my family didn't understand me and my mental health issues but going through the middle and end of the year, I know that they're trying, especially my dad. Dad, I see you, I see your effort in trying to make me happy, I love you. Also my sisters, I got closer to them this year. I talked to my first sister about my mental health and pop culture a lot last  year. I helped my second sister in both of her jobs and she took me out to eat a lot last year, so that's great. And last but definitely not least, my mom. She helped me a lot last year in terms of writing my thesis so I'm really grateful for that. I just am now realizing on how much the effort that my family has put out for me. Thank you.

Friends : 8.5/10

My friends are still as supportive as ever. They're always there whenever I need them and willing to listen to all of my worries and just random thoughts. I also hung out more with them last year (with covid precautions ofc) so that's super great. I love meeting them and catching up with them, always a delight.

Physical health : 4.5/10

Okay, I can explain. I ate more rice in 2021 then I was in 2020 so more weight gain there. But in order to even it out, I swim now. Swimming has always been the only sport that I like and I'm good at. Another bad news is that, I got another lump in my jaw, but I think it's just because I'm stressed out so there's that. I just hope it'll be better in 2022.

Mental health : 4/10

Yes. Finally. A jump from the number that I gave last year. This jump happened because I went to 2 therapy sessions in 2021. I mean clearly, I should've gone to more sessions but these 2 sessions were important in me knowing what's happening with me mentally. Also with these therapy sessions I realize that with someone's mental health there are ups and downs and that's why people go to therapy sessions in between some period of time. But with that realization, I've been having several downs this year and some are worse than the others, but I know there will always be better days that will come after those downs so I just do anything that'll make me happy whenever it came and wait until it passed.

Love life : N/A

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Fangirl life : 8/10

It's the same score as last year because I basically like the same stuffs that I liked in 2018-2020. Thai actors, marvel, game of thrones, fantasy novels, kpop. They're all the stuffs that I've liked before but it still has better quality than before. I also started to like Taylor Swift's music more in 2021. Her ability to create meaningful words that turns into masterpiece of songs is just amazing. She's also the best in telling the story of the songs that she sings. I'm still waiting for the time that she rereleases her old albums because it feels like I get to relive the time that I had when the original version of the songs came out back then, so keep doing what you're doing, blondie!

2021 overall was 5.4 for me. I'm definitely really proud of myself in learning to just let go, live in the present, and attempting to live an anxiety free life that resulting in a better life. I hope that 2022 is gonna be better for us all.

See you in the next post!