hello, everyone! it's the last day of 2024 here, and i'm writing this on the last hours of 2024. you know what that means, yes, a year review. if i have to say, 2024 isn't that much better than 2023 but we'll see, maybe some aspects will shock me.
Academic Life : 7,5/10
there's not many updates from the academic life. i've got good grades last semester, even though it felt like that semester was about to kill me, it actually didn't so i was so grateful that i managed to finish last semester well. i also started writing my master's thesis this year. it is soooooo fucking hard you guys especially when both your professors don't really get your topic so they just let me do whatever i want as long as it followed the regulations on writing master's thesis. but for someone who always second guess everything, it's hard. i need someone to guide me, to give me precise instructions on what to do. it has been really hard to look for sources for my topic because the case is still ongoing and almost no one talk about it so i hope that it will be easier for me to find the source and finish my master's thesis in 2025.
Work : 7,5/10
i got a job!!! i finally got a job. it's a freelance remote job which isn't the most traditional form of jobs out there. but it's something that i'm confident in. it's also less anxiety triggering so far, compared to my last "job" because i don't have to interact with people as much and i'm doing it in my own phase. i just started this month, and this is me manifesting and finger-crossing that it will be a good thing for me.
Family : 6/10
there are still some issues that i have with both my parents this year. i still feel like my mom is both my best friend and my arch-enemy. my dad's political view makes me want to blast out emails i can't send by sabrina carpenter and show the lyrics to him. but i feel like all those are still manageable compared to last year's fallout.
Friends : 8/10
i didn't meet up with my friends as much this year but i get it. as you grow older, everyone has their own routine and sometimes they don't match up with yours so it's fine. but what matters is that, whenever i meet them, it will all still feel the same. it doesn't feel like we've been apart for a long time. i'm meeting some of my college friends this year so it's nice to catch up with them about each of their life. i'm so grateful for all of you guys still.
Physical Health : 4/10
it's, it's bad, y'all. starting from the fact that u hardly ever workout this year, which is my fault, i know. i need to buy that goddamn swimming hijab so i can swim without fear of showing my whole neck. i got some back pain and upper back pain here and there. there were times in the year where i felt like i got severe headaches for days but i think i can connect that to my anxiety but boy did those headaches feel like hell. there's also a bad news, i found another lump in my breast, meaning i have to go another round of both medical and alternative treatment for it which is not fun but i guess i can see why it shows up again with my unhealthy lifestyle this year. i still need to buy that fucking swimming hijab!!!
Mental Health : 4,5/10
i went to two more therapy sessions this year but with a different psychologist. i found one near my house with an affordable rate. she was around my age so i felt like i could be more open with her, it's like i'm telling a story to my friend. she also gave me a homework which was nice. the homework is too record my thought whenever i feel anxious and/or scared. it does help me in helping detecting what emotion that i'm feeling at the moment and why am i feeling that way just so that i won't just let it burn in the background while i distract myself. but i guess with what has been happening in the world this year, it will still raise my stress level. so yes there's an increase from last year, but not as much.
Fangirl Life : 8/10
this year has been a lot of comebacks in my hyperfixations. the beginning of the year i started being obsessed with the thailand pop culture again. i watched a lot of thai series in the beginning of the year, listened to a lot of thaipop to the point that all of my top 5 spotify wrapped songs are thaipop. i was a bit mad at that because i don't listen to thaipop as much anymore, so let's move on. in the middle of the year i got into ateez again, not the whole kpop, just ateez because of their coachella stage this year. they did really good and i'm glad that they got the recognition that they deserved domestically this year. their b-sides are really good, you need to give them a listen. then house of the dragon season 2 was on a couple of months later. though it was bad (see : previous post and the tv show talk post after this one), the hyperfixation on a song of ice and fire was back, to the point that i bought a game of thrones book. i also need to finish the book. i started watching hannibal later this year and that lead to a big flood of me starting to watch more movies this year. i made a letterboxd account as well only to log the movies that i've watched this year. music wise other than thaipop and ateez, this year has been a big year for the pop girlies so i listen to a lot of them. sabrina carpenter, of course, she had an amazing year this year career wise. she got her first grammy nominations and i'm predicting she's at least gonna win one of them. i can already imagine the picutre of her with her grammy in hand. short & sweet is a really good album and lie to girls is so underrated. i listened to a little bit of chappell roan this year. i also stand with her belief that artists are also human and deserved to be treated as such. her standing up to many people when they're treating her and her family like shit. her political stance was also something that i can applaud for. i started listening to more gracie abrams this year. the secret of us is sooooo good. i feel like every song that i've been listening to from that album is a banger. my favorite is us and i love you i'm sorry the live in vevo version.
so let's count the overall score. 2024 was 6,5 out of 10 for me. as i predicted earlier there is a decrease in score but it's not that much. it was a steady year for me in terms of the emotional roller coaster. i really really hope 2025 will be a better year for me and for all of you. thank you, see you in another post, and happy new year!
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